Being Fair!!!!

What is Being Fair???

At this juncture, I am forced to think!!! What exactly is Being Fair? How important it is? What meaning does it have? Can it have different meanings for different people?
Here I am obviously talking about "fair" which means "just".

But the twist in the tale is that even this one meaning has multiple meanings for different people.

In my opinion, Being Fair means I am completely following the rules of the game (life) & not doing any such activity which can take on any other person's equal opportunity of winning & succeeding. Behaving in a manner you ought to behave is Being Fair.

This is what I think! Others don't really think the same.
Some think Being Fair is doing wrong things & breaking rules without getting caught.
Some think Being Fair is just having an intention to win ('Everything is fair in love & war' philosophy).
Some think Being Fair is following the rules but not thinking of equal opportunity to others.
Some think Being Fair is harmless cheating.

I'm confused.... How can there be multiple meanings to it???


Closing my eyes, I try & hear my soul.
What is important to me? Is winning so important to me that I want to achieve it by any means?
Should I try what others are doing? What if I stick to my ethics & values and I'm left behind in the long rat race? After all don't I want to taste the fruit of success?

This is what I realized....

Ethics & values are the best companions one can have because even if others don't see your efforts, two people are always seeing it: 1.YOUR OWN SOUL 2.GOD

Winning is important but only if it is a packaged deal with Being Fair. Otherwise, somewhere your inner self won't give you a peaceful sleep if you were unfair.

If you stick to your ethics & values, there are strong chances of you being left behind in the long rat race....but then who said you are a rat? You are a HUMAN BEING... Have you forgotten that?

The fruit of success will taste sweet only if you know you deserve it, not otherwise.

The right path would be slow & difficult to travel...And would make you achieve less.... But you would enjoy the journey so much that winning would be just another word for you!




Think about it!

IT ACTUALLY SPEAKS!!!!!

THINKING!
My fingers are eager to write something.... my thoughts tempting me to just sit & think!
My mind is crowded today, thinking of where I was 1 year back & where I am now!

While all this was going on.... I was just wondering everything is so beautiful... when did I cover the journey towards heaven....

Suddenly a voice from within answered: "You created heaven just here on earth all around yourself."
I turned back....looked here & there. "NIKITA, you have gone crazy!" I told myself.

Again the voice said: "I am your heart!"

I thought in my mind, am I too sleepy that I'm hearing these voices & dreaming even before going to bed?

Voice: "Stop wondering now... You heard me right. I do speak. I- your heart... its just that you need peace around & within you to hear me."

I smiled at the sudden amusing situation... Whats this??? But whatever it is, its something very enchanting... continue....

Inner Voice: "Why were you so shocked, or rather surprised to hear me? I have spoken to you so many times.... answered so many questions in your life till date. You always consider my opinion while taking decisions. Infact, you listen to me 99% of the times & agree to what I say & not what your brains say."

NIKITA : I know! :)

Inner Voice: "Today I'm so explicitly in front of you because right now your life is full of freshness, I(heart) am being nurtured by you. You haven't travelled to heaven but you have created HEAVEN right here on earth."

NIKITA: Is it? Why was I not feeling the same earlier? What was wrong then? What has happened now? Will this last forever?......

Inner Voice: "Phew! Breathe dear! I would answer all your questions.
You had lost yourself somewhere on some unknown path. You refused to listen to me. You refused to smile. You refused to talk. You hated everything....doubted everything... You refused to be NIKITA AGARWAL. You were scared that your identity, your soul is 'hurt prone' and would take you into troubles at every step you take.

Slowly & gradually something started happening. A flute was being played by someone in the heaven to bring your soul alive (I hope you'll understood the intended meaning).
People around you, started giving you positive vibes. The vibes which were specially sent to you by HIM. Now you started taking things positively. You stopped being tensed about each small & stupid thing happening in your life.
Small things, small gestures, small momentary happiness gathered you and filled smiles in the air just for you. I again was given the authority to decide things for you.
Things which were close to me (heart) were being given place in your life again."

NIKITA: One year back everything had gone haywire. Back then I thought this is it. My life would always remain like this now. I had no clue where my personal & professional life was heading.
But this phase of loneliness would embrace my life again. What will I do then? Can I do something now to avoid being not- so-NIKITA in future?

Inner voice: "Yes, you can make this state a permanent one by just feeling the presence of the one who showed you this path again at every step of your life (the Lord of love). Just smile through every walk of your life by imagining Him smiling at you. Feel the love of your loved ones even if they don't express. Express your thoughts & love at every opportunity you get. Live your life according to me (HEART)."


Its so true that such phases keep coming in our lives when we think we are on no man's land.... But that time we just need to patiently listen to our heart! Everything will fall in place!

Think about it!

THIRST

There is so much of thirst....... but I'm clueless how do I quench it......

I held some sand in my hand....when I opened my fist there was not a pinch of it left...
Was it an illusion??? Or had I gained something which is now lost....

I thought I was in heaven but it was just another dream...
So many people around me, every moment was so much fun, but when I blinked my eyes there were none...
There were many footsteps along mine on every path that I walked, I could see their shadows but when I turned it was a hallucination....
Time passes by my hurt sulks, I keep up a smile on my face but my heart slowly sulks...
Beautiful colors crowded my eyes but a rain washed away the colors leaving a white trail behind...
A hug full of togetherness is what I craved for.... a hi- bye relationship is what I get in return...
I wish I had never received the beautiful memories which make me greedy of creating more...
Somewhere inside my heart weeps, all the memories seem to be like heaps... heaps of falsity heaps of fickleness.....
I sit on earth...motionless...waiting for the moments to pass...
"There is still a hope!" my heart says.... my mind just asks one question, "Whom are you fooling my dear? YOURSELF or the WORLD?"

SOMETIMES

sometimes its just a smile that works, sometimes its a look... those eyes say alot....
sometimes its the innocence... sometimes a beautiful conversation... sometimes just a wink...

sometimes a cup of tea together... sometimes a walk...

sometimes we seek support sometimes we give....
sometimes the silence speaks sometimes we do...sometimes the trust is immense & deep... sometimes the emotions make us weak... hours seem like seconds that go by in a blink...

a small tiff.... a small rift... a small passing moment... brings me near.. to all my dear lovely lovely friends
the breeze seems fresh... a soothing hush... my face's blush... brings happiness to my heart..

the moments spent will never come back... but the memories are here to stay...
the fact that i had a lovely day... comes to my mind and stays... gone are the times when difficulties chased me... this smile is here to stay...

all these moments and many more makes me a human being.... strange are humans and human relations.... but its a pleasure to struggle & understand :)

BALANCE

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE POSTED SOMETHING ON MY BLOG.... LATELY BEING OUT OF MOOD TO WRITE MAYBE.... NEVERTHELESS THERE'S ALWAYS A NEW BEGINNING....

Today sitting alone and looking back to what has happened till date in the first half of the year, I was being pulled by the pleasant and unpleasant happenings of my life....
There were many beautiful moments which I will cherish for life. Many unhappy phases which seemed to last for eons. I was put into many difficult situations, through which I somehow struggled with the help of my family and friends....... common now nothing can be a cakewalk or else the essence of life will fade. The vigour TO MAKE IT will die. I played my part hoping that whatever I did was the best step that could be taken.

Sometimes we face something in our lives which shatters us completely. Yet at the end of it we realize that it was necessary for us to face it or else we wouldn't have been able to grow into a stronger person.

However true the above lines must be, it is difficult and almost next to impossible to understand them when we are in a tough situation. But do we notice? God always gives us a mix, a BALANCE of happy and unhappy events. And more often than not those unhappy events are the reasons to make us deserving candidates of happy events. OK that is becoming quite complicated. I would simplify.
See when a child grows he doesn't know how it feels when he would jump off a sofa and get hurt.... so he tries it...gets hurt and learns that ''whenever we jump off from a higher point we get hurt''.... this would save him from attempting a jump off the terrace in future {though there are some maniacs who attempt suicides... probably they didn't learn their lessons well ;) }
In a similar manner since childhood we have been learning small and big lessons from mistakes (some being our own and some made by others). Unless we have these hurtful and unhappy experiences neither would we value nor have any good and successful moments in our lives.

Yet the child in our heart cries and asks, "Do I have to go through this?"
The only answer we get from our mature mind is "Hey! do you have an option?"
HEART: Not really...
MIND: Then why not face it strongly...
HEART: Oh yeah! as if its so easy....
MIND: But GOD never promised you that life would be easy. You tried crying over it and handling it. It didn't really work. Now try my 'BRAINY WAY' by being strong and smiling through your tough situations maybe this will work......
HEART: (gulp) OK will try :)

Very often the solutions to many of our situations lies in going the way around... as in using the path we were never prepared to use... And then there is no harm in trying something new. Who knows maybe this works for us better.

The key lies in having a balance of decisions taken through heart and head....
The key lies in knowing that there will always be a balance of good and bad things in life.... after every horrible incident, something very beautiful is waiting for you... And the amount of time you take to come out of that incident will be only taking the forthcoming happiness away from you...

THINK ABOUT IT!

PHILOSOPHICAL

In life we always come across two pathways... The first path is the ''moral'' one & the other is ''immoral''.... However cliched this may sound, making a choice every time is altogether a unique experience...

The immoral path is easy to choose, satisfies our short term desires, but doesn't guarantee long term success and happiness. On the other hand the moral path is difficult to walk on, would seem to bring pains but is the ultimate one.

Someone had once told me whenever we do something wrong or choose the insincere way, God always gives us an option.... It is so true. He slowly whispers that you are doing ''wrong''... Our heart asks us again & again 'Am I doing the right thing?' But we just ignore the call of our conscience for short term pleasures, we allow ourselves to be surrendered to the moment's temptation and forget about everything and everybody else. But our inner voice, our intuition would keep pinching us and warning us about the unseen pitfalls that this path would bring. We wouldn't really have the peace of mind to have a sound sleep.

On the other hand if we gather the courage to choose a difficult but right path, we might face many obstacles but at the same time God gives us the ability to face everything. We would continuously feel God's presence and approval. The peace of mind will keep a smile on our face even in the toughest situation. The smile on our face would actually be the smile of our conscience. We would love ourselves and therefore, love the people around us too.
Because to give love to anybody else we first need to love ourselves to the fullest.

We lie about different things to 'n' number of people in our lives but the day we lie to ourselves that is the end of God's existence in our souls.
The beauty of a person lies in this clear conscience... So the next time when any unknown & unseen person asks you how do you look or you judge yourself don't say anything on the basis of what you see in the mirror... judge yourself on the basis of the mirror of your soul; ask yourself 'Have I always taken the right path?' , 'Is my mind at peace?' , 'Do i actually get a sound sleep?'
I'm asking these questions to myself. I guess my looks are AVERAGE! (Hope the answer would only improve as time passes by)
:)

EMOTIONS OF A BRIDE

Today when I went , as a routine, to my french classes I saw the place had a completely unique look for 'the day'. The usual dull GD Somani School was today beautifully decorated for a wedding. Lavish decorations, welcoming red carpets, flowers all over, lots of people gathered, dressed beautifully....there was happiness in the air....
Certain things told me it was a Marwari wedding (ummmm don't ask me the reasons)
I saw the bride & the groom. The varmala rasm was on. There was loads of shyness in the eyes of the bride. She was looking as gorgeous as anyother woman would look on her wedding day, the D day of her life... elegant and graceful.
The groom (as everybody knows Maru guys don't really look that smart) as expected was just ok looking... ok sorry for the simple & brutal truth.

I love weddings and so kept thinking for a while of the various kinds of emotions that the bride must be experiencing. In a few hours she will leave her own house. the house she was born & brought up in, where she has spent her beautiful 20-25 years. The house where she could, even with her eyes shut, find the stuff she wanted. Everything was so damn 'HERS'. And then suddenly today she will have to leave behind everyone & everything. Yes, there is lots of pain inside her heart for the same reason but as usual there is another side to this coin too. She is happy. Amazingly happy. She had waited to belong to someone since she was a small child. The prince charming she had always dreamed about. She will have someone who will be so concerned about her, will love her till his last breath. She will dedicate the rest of her life to him & he will to her.......
The bride has a different kind of glow on her face. She is glowing out of happiness. Blushing all the while. Another emotion she is struggling with is 'anxiety'. Loads of anxiety. She will have to go to an entirely new place amongst entirely new people. She doesn't know how her in-laws will turn out to be. Will they be able to give her the same affection her family gave? Will she be able to do the same with them? Their tastes, their lifestyle, their habits, everything will be so different from her parents' house. Whoa! ''her house'' has already become ''her parents' house''. My mother says girls are meant to go to the 'other house' because God has made women so emotionally powerful that she has the capacity to handle two families & keep them together. A woman alone has the ability to, twice in her life, adapt to different lifestyles. First when she is born & second when she marries and goes to her husband's house. This is the last time probably that it is being called her husband's house. From tomorrow onwards it will be 'her house', 'her family'..... She will win over everyone's heart & tie everybody with her bond of love. Then there is a fear at the back of her mind: Has she chosen the right life partner???? only time will tell....
There is a new feeling called ''love'' inside her which overpowers all her fears & anxieties. And she moves one step forward in her life.......