Sunday, December 6, 2009

JUST WHEN....

Just when I think life is going smooth without any speed breakers, my belief is let down

Just when I think I have achieved what I want, the achievement slips out of my hands

Just when I am about to agree to facts, a signboard tells me 'Facts have changed'

Just when I gather courage, I am discouraged by life's moves

Just when I take the right path, I am forced to take a U-turn

Just when life starts looking beautiful, the painting goes off color

Just when I start enjoying my dream world, I am shaken by the brutal truth of life

Just when I am clear in my mind, confusion sinks in

Just when I reach my comfort zone, a shift takes place

Just when I intend to ask questions to life, a thought crosses my mind and says 'Who do you think will answer?'

Just when I am about to say a yes, life says no

Just when I think my life is perfect, it just seems more IMPERFECT than ever before........

Saturday, November 14, 2009

NOTHING

NOTHINGNESS.... sometimes our life is full of nothings, full of emptiness, full of vacuum.... The nihility can be quite painful and yet at the same time this phase (yes its just a phase of our life) can teach us to struggle out of the most difficult times..... An individual can make the best or the worst out of it....kind of make-it-or-break-it situation....
A girl was once very focused, determined & clear in her mind... She knew what it was that she had to do, in which direction she will take her life. Yes, she was the one who was giving directions to life and it was never the other way round. She was her own BOSS. She always used to put in her best efforts at whatever challenge she had in front of her. Always doing things in the right way, never choosing the wrong path. The wrong ways and path were non-existent in her life. Remember she chose directions in which her life has to head.... Everything was going smooth when suddenly (I think life had had enough of her orders) life decided to toss the game the other way round.... Yes, this time LIFE was the boss... She had to face a failure and this was unbearable for a person who had never ever faced one. She was shattered at life's brutal step against her and yes NOTHINGNESS seeped in her (and it seemed it would stay for a long time)
She finally had to face the phase she was running away from for years. For hours she used to analyse her state of mind and conclude nothing, just nothing. Talking to herself she said ''I am NOTHING. My existence means nothing to this world. Nothing at all. Yet then I see myself and say that God wouldn't have created me just like that. There must be some reason, a purpose, an aim, a goal, an opportunity not yet explored. WHY don't I already have it clearly written on my hand what exactly I am meant to do? But then if it was so easy what is the sense? If I wont face any hardships how will I realise what finally WINNING means. If we don't have sorrows in our lives, we won't understand what HAPPINESS exactly feels like, it would be just another thing. And her mind kept switching from a learned philosopher to a scared child searching an answer.... She wasn't being able to make the best use of her phase of nothingness...... TO BE CONTD.....

Monday, October 19, 2009

THE LOST BATTLE

BATTLE..... is it always necessary to win it or do we sometimes also be satisfied losing it? no no don't just jump to a conclusion that this is the first time I have lost a battle and so this instant post... There have been many such occasions in my life but yet on some of them it wasn't depressing, there was a feeling that my loosing it was making the other person happy... and believe me loosing instead seemed to be the best option available..... The opponent becomes so important for us that his/her winning becomes extremely important.....
Then the question arises "Why do we at all have a battle with such an important person? My mind answers "They are important wont be realizable if such situations don't arise; its having a battle with such people that actually affects us the most."
"How is it possible that they don't see our happiness?" My mind "Its a difference of perception, maybe they think our happiness lies in the decision they have taken." Its funny both of us are seeking each other' happiness when finally its the togetherness that will bring the true contentment to our lives......
Very often we realize it quite late that differences do come in opinions, fights do happen, arguments take place, and all other unpleasant things happen..... but they happen first of all because the opinion of the person matters.... otherwise if strangers think anything it doesn't really matter.... What matters is the presence and perception of our loved ones... our near & dear ones....

Disagreements should never be misunderstood to be a lack of compatibility..... it maybe just that someone wanted the best for us and was thinking of better options than we have thought of..... but very often its not possible to think so positively at the time of a battle.....

I fear that it will be too late until we realize our mistakes, until we realize their importance, until we realize why it was bothering so much to hear a different perception from someone, why the rejection of our feelings by someone mattered, why disagreements happened, until.........

Thinking of all this my mind itself is divided into 2 parts & having a huge battle....

If its too late already then I must say its a LOST BATTLE now.......
But if its not late go on take some steps to make it a WIN WIN SITUATION.....

THINK ABOUT IT!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

LAYERS

Layers of a person.....there are so many layers of a personality, some of them known and some unknown. Many a times it happens that we don't even understand all the layers of our own personality.....i know some may not agree saying that they know themselves very well...but some others who agree will understand that certain people in our life come and make us realize the other layers unknown to us ......
Likewise we make others recognize their true self when we hold such a position in their life that our opinion matters....

Letsee it in this way- when we meet somebody for the first time just some introduction takes place, then we start knowing him/her...at different occasions the person to whom we are talking has different circumstances around him; and so someday he/she may come across as a busy soul indifferent to our conversations, some other day we realize it was too early a judgement passed and he/she is very caring and sensitive always available to help....then when only once he /she couldn't make it for us we think- see my opinion earlier was absolutely right and so it goes on and on...
Until one day we realize let me first check the layers I have had in my relations or at least with that one person whom I have been judging recently every now and then. hmmm now see the other side:

Instance: Whenever he/ she needed me, was I there? ummm ''YES'' I guess most of the times when at least I was aware of the problem
Explanation: The '' most of the times'' should be taken into consideration, but then maybe my 100% wasn't upto the mark for him/her

Instance: He/she was a stranger but still helped me
Explanation: Stranger but it was his/her choice to help and after that we were friends, so friends aren't strangers

Instance: He/she was busy and tired, did I understand him/her and offer support?
Explanation: I'm afraid no I didnt....actually I needed him/her too...and was feeling that I was being ignored

and the instances are endless and the explanations too weak......

A friend of mine once said- Everybody thinks they are giving their 100% in every relation but the 100% varies with different individuals...
Understand yourself and other people too.....
Layers of a person are like layers of soil.... So maybe we can cherish the soft layers of those who are close to us and at the same time help them soften the bedrock layer of their personality.....


think about it!

Thursday, September 3, 2009

Beautiful Experiences

Today I intend to take you to an entirely different journey of experiences..... hope I'll be successful...
There are so many daily life experiences which we don't enjoy because of our fast paced life. We never have a reason to be sad, then why do we always search for a reason to be happy? Why don't we cherish the small yet beautiful moments of life?

When I got up in the morning, I felt the purity of my prayer to God.....
When I went to my balcony, I first closed my eyes and felt the fresh air & when I opened my eyes, I admired the beauty of early morning, my eyes felt blessed....

When my cup of tea was kept in front of me, hmmmm I smelled the aroma of fresh ginger tea...
When I looked at my parents I felt an amazing pleasure to see them smile at me.....
When I went for a shower I could feel the water caress me like it had never before...
When I was eating food, like a gourmand I could relish my simple dal rice...
The flowers with which I decorated the temple seemed so very beautiful....
The silence in the church sounded so peaceful to me.....
When I went for a walk with a loved one it was one of the most beautiful moments of my life.....
When I observed the gestures of a 6 month old baby I felt like being her age again.......
When a ten year old was playing with his friends I felt like being his age again......
the innocence of both left me feeling awed equally.......
When I went on a drive without switching on the usual AC, I could feel the chilly breeze on my face & a long drive was never this beautiful before......
It felt relaxing to walk on the wet sand on the beach.....
The sound of the droplets of water is the most melodious rhythm I have ever heard....
And the instances are countless and priceless....

I could experience heaven in all these small moments.....

SO do we actually need any more reasons to be happy and feel blessed?????
THINK ABOUT IT!!!

Monday, August 24, 2009

HAPPY REALISATION!!!!!

i was in the middle of something and suddenly realized that we wait to share our feelings with the ones whom we really love and want to share with them everything that's happening in our life- the good, bad, neutral experiences with all the minute details; waiting to meet them and tell them everything oh that anxiety.... but then what we sometimes don't realize is that those special ones may not be that interested and still we go on and on..... they might think ''oh god! what kind of a person she is every time she has some problem or the other, why does she go in such details every time i don't even want to know the headlines of her experience,.....''

but wait there's something more i can see on the other side...... there are these OTHER people who are not that important for us but somehow we are very important to them. we unknowingly like their support but tend to take them for granted and there's a day when these not so important people have had their patience level tested too much and they decide to hide somewhere where we cant see them....(and yes you are going in the right direction about what happens next) - we start missing them like anything.....

now wait for a moment and try and retrospect how many people are there in your life ? how many of these fall in the important category and how many in the not-so-important one? try to look keenly at all the corners of your life to see those who really care about our weirdest experiences too.....hmmmmm i am sure by the end of it you will have some strange realizations (that is if you can relate to what i am saying!)
in both the experiences there can be two people involved each time and remember you can be either one of them!!!!!

but since in everyday life we don't sit and think about these things we miss on some really really important people..... people who are worth our love and care....
then go ahead today and tell them how actually important they are to you as you are to them.....believe me those small gestures would mean a lot and would
change your life completely (for the better that is)
........

cherish the people who are near you ,those who are far away will come near automatically....
think about it
!

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

WHY

Sitting alone right now only one thought comes to my mind "WHY?"
WHY do people hate each other...
WHY the ones for whom we care so much don't care for us in return....
WHY do we build expectations when we know people wont be able to fulfil them.....
WHY do we hurt ourselves by thinking of those who don't care at all.....
WHY don't we just stop living for others only....
WHY don't we rather see only those who love us....
WHY do we make sacrifices when they hurt us so much...
WHY is trust always broken....
WHY do we loose hope midway....
WHY dont we think before speaking and acting....
WHY is it so difficult to become disonnected...
there are so many such whys! so many...the list is probably endless
but the list of answers is no where to be seen

its not easy to maintain relations be it friends, family or any other kind of relation.
there should be a limit set by us to stop us from overdoing for others at the cost of our own emotions and also when the others seem to be least concerned.

but whenever one thinks of doing that he realises that the love for that person (be it any relation) overshadows the pain....

and again after thinking so much i ask myself WHY??????

Sunday, August 2, 2009

2day i would like 2 share a very nice story which i read somewhere

ITS ANOTHER DAY.......
….. Again I have to go to office

Ohh, this is me… I shouted having a glance on my snap in today’s news paper.

But what the HELL it is doing in the death column??

Strange…

One sec... Let me think, last night when I was going to bed I had a severe pain in my chest, but I don’t remember anything after that, I think I had a sound sleep.

Its morning now, ohh….. It’s already 10:00 AM, where is my coffee?

I will be late for office and my boss will get a chance to irritate me.

Where is everyone…??? I screamed.

“I think there is a crowed outside my room, let me check.” I said to myself.

So many people….. Not all of them crying…

But why some of them crying…

WHAT IS THIS??? I m laying there on the floor…

“I AM HERE” … I shouted!!! No one listen.

“LOOK I AM NOT DEAD” … I screamed once again!!! No one is interested in me.

They all were looking me on the bed.

I went back to my bed room.

“Am I dead??” I asked myself.

Where is my wife, my children, my mom-DAD, my friends?

I found them in the next room, all of them were crying… still trying to console each other.

My wife was crying… she was really looking sad.

My little kid was not sure what happened, but he was crying just coz his mom was sad.

How can I go without saying my kid that I really love him, I really do care of him. ??

How can I go without saying my wife that she is really most beautiful and most caring wife in this world..??

How can I go without saying my parents that I m … just because of u ??

How can I go without telling my friends that without them perhaps I have done most of the wrong things in my life… thanks for being there always when I need them… and sorry for not being there when they really need me..

I can see a person standing in the corner and trying to hide his tears…

Ohh… he was once my best friend, but a small misunderstanding made us part, and we both have strong enough ego to keep us disconnect.

I went there.. And offered him my hand, “Dear friend… I just want to say sorry for everything, we r still best friend, please forgive me.”

No response from other side, what the hell?? He is still preserving his ego, I am saying sorry… even then!!!

I really don’t care for such people.

But one sec…. it seems he is not able to see me!!!! He did not see my extended hand.

My goodness… AM I REALLY DEAD???

I just sat down near ME; I was also feeling like crying…

“OHH ALMIGHTY!!!! PLEASE JUST GIVE ME FEW MORE DAYS…”

I just wasn’t to make my wife, my parents; my friends realize that how much I love them.

My wife entered in the room, she looks beautiful.

“YOU R BEAUTIFUL” I shouted.

She didn’t hear my words, in fact she never heard these words coz I never said this to her.

“GOD!!!!” I screamed… a little more time plzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..

I cried…

One more chance please… to hug my child, to make my mom smile just once, to feel my dad proud on me at least for a moment, to say sorry to my friends for everything I have not given to them, and thanks for still being in my life….

Then I looked up and cried!!!!

I shouted….

“GOD!!!! ONE MORE CHANCE PLEASE!!!!”

"You shouted in your sleep," said my wife as she gently woke me up. "Did you have a nightmare?"

I was sleeping….

Ohh that was just a dream….

My wife was there… she can hear me…

This is the happiest moment of my life…

I hugged her and whispered…. “U R THE MOST BEAUTIFUL AND CARING WIFE IN THIS UNIVERSE…. I REALLY LOVE U DEAR”

I can’t understand the reason of the smile on her face with some tears in her eyes, still I m happy…. :)

“THANK YOU GOD FOR THIS SECOND? CHANCE.”

So, Now it’s not late.... Forget your egos, past ...., and express your love to others …. Be friendly .… keep smiling and be happy for ever…..Love N life are Not Going to b wid u for ever too...:) Express It..

THIS STORY I HOPE WILL MAKE MANY REALISE that its love & loved ones that should matter the most in a person' life

Saturday, August 1, 2009

a new start
i am not that much into blogging so don't know what has to be written. this is the first time i am writing a blog!
i feel its a fresh start to many things today. though i don't have any particular example.
i think life is gonna change. something very different is waiting. UNIQUE as i like it to be alwaz. life is actually very confusing, just when we are convinced that things are going worse there is a ray of hope rising from the direction opposite to that which we are facing.
start has its own worries with it. fear whether its the right path, fear of losing out on something good and lots of stuff go in and come out of our minds.
but it has a bright side too.... a direction that we choose will help us bring out the best in us. hope of tasting success this time, facing new challenges, priceless experiences, hope to realise someday that thisthe best decision of my life .... and i eventually notice that positive list turns out to be longer
well then i am all set to '''get set goooooo..... '''