Imagining Future

Ever tried imagining how your future can be? I'm sure you did.
But what did you imagine? Did you let the lives of your loved ones & their experiences influence your future? Do you sometimes think of your future & fear "what if the incident that happened with her, happens with me too?"

All these fears and many more stop our mind & heart to come together & paint a picture of TOMORROW. A painting is an unbiased interpretation of what comes to our mind & no one else can have an identical thought.

Are you too much involved in your mundane activities & feel the future is gloomy? If yes, (actually even if no)

Sit in a place far away from your routine life. Switch off your phone, laptop & your ideal self (the one which is visible to the whole world). Close your eyes. And just let your imagination be a painter of your future. You can do this alone or with a person, you feel is your alter ego.

Slowly you start being totally comfortable in your shoes (not literally).
You start experiencing beautiful moments which never occurred to you before. You give both positive & negative strokes (incidents) to the painting but the negative ones also come with a solution. You suddenly find that all your fears were invalid. Even if some of them were valid you (or even your companion in painting) has a solution to it.

It rolls out as if a reel is being played in real life. A story being unveiled, with you as the main protagonist. You feel like you should just not stop & come back to your present unless you have have figured out or imagined the last moment of your life.

Go on live a life by dreaming (imagining) with mind & heart open in all consciousness.
I bet you will be able to do away with a lot many fears & negative thoughts to live a better present life.

DREAM ABOUT IT!

DESPERATE DESIRES!

I love it.... I want it.... Nothing else can calm me, satisfy me.... I'm Depressed.... PLEASE DON'T TAKE IT AWAY! No one else on earth can deserve it more than me....I screamed... I shouted... The screeches thundered in the hollow space.

I had striven... I had stayed up all night.... who will repay those lost moments which belonged to my loved ones.... I sacrificed my niece's beautiful silly games... i didn't go for the best party... I didn't do all that could have made me happy... Because I needed my dreams to come true...
But I lost.... I couldn't just reach it...
When my hand was just about to reach the cliff... the cliff rose to a higher level....

It was a failure leaving a feeling "U LEFT SOME STONES UNTURNED". I turned back to see how long had I climbed. I could see a long mountain turning to a plateau.

I started gaining back my consciousness. The road is yet uncovered. The cliff is yet unclimbed. Some stones are yet unturned. GET UP! GET BACK!

A VOICE OVER, unheard for a few hours, started getting audible & loud "Nothing can stop my journey. Nothing can hamper my efforts. Nothing can stop me from achieving my DESPERATE DESIRES!!!

Being Fair!!!!

What is Being Fair???

At this juncture, I am forced to think!!! What exactly is Being Fair? How important it is? What meaning does it have? Can it have different meanings for different people?
Here I am obviously talking about "fair" which means "just".

But the twist in the tale is that even this one meaning has multiple meanings for different people.

In my opinion, Being Fair means I am completely following the rules of the game (life) & not doing any such activity which can take on any other person's equal opportunity of winning & succeeding. Behaving in a manner you ought to behave is Being Fair.

This is what I think! Others don't really think the same.
Some think Being Fair is doing wrong things & breaking rules without getting caught.
Some think Being Fair is just having an intention to win ('Everything is fair in love & war' philosophy).
Some think Being Fair is following the rules but not thinking of equal opportunity to others.
Some think Being Fair is harmless cheating.

I'm confused.... How can there be multiple meanings to it???


Closing my eyes, I try & hear my soul.
What is important to me? Is winning so important to me that I want to achieve it by any means?
Should I try what others are doing? What if I stick to my ethics & values and I'm left behind in the long rat race? After all don't I want to taste the fruit of success?

This is what I realized....

Ethics & values are the best companions one can have because even if others don't see your efforts, two people are always seeing it: 1.YOUR OWN SOUL 2.GOD

Winning is important but only if it is a packaged deal with Being Fair. Otherwise, somewhere your inner self won't give you a peaceful sleep if you were unfair.

If you stick to your ethics & values, there are strong chances of you being left behind in the long rat race....but then who said you are a rat? You are a HUMAN BEING... Have you forgotten that?

The fruit of success will taste sweet only if you know you deserve it, not otherwise.

The right path would be slow & difficult to travel...And would make you achieve less.... But you would enjoy the journey so much that winning would be just another word for you!




Think about it!

IT ACTUALLY SPEAKS!!!!!

THINKING!
My fingers are eager to write something.... my thoughts tempting me to just sit & think!
My mind is crowded today, thinking of where I was 1 year back & where I am now!

While all this was going on.... I was just wondering everything is so beautiful... when did I cover the journey towards heaven....

Suddenly a voice from within answered: "You created heaven just here on earth all around yourself."
I turned back....looked here & there. "NIKITA, you have gone crazy!" I told myself.

Again the voice said: "I am your heart!"

I thought in my mind, am I too sleepy that I'm hearing these voices & dreaming even before going to bed?

Voice: "Stop wondering now... You heard me right. I do speak. I- your heart... its just that you need peace around & within you to hear me."

I smiled at the sudden amusing situation... Whats this??? But whatever it is, its something very enchanting... continue....

Inner Voice: "Why were you so shocked, or rather surprised to hear me? I have spoken to you so many times.... answered so many questions in your life till date. You always consider my opinion while taking decisions. Infact, you listen to me 99% of the times & agree to what I say & not what your brains say."

NIKITA : I know! :)

Inner Voice: "Today I'm so explicitly in front of you because right now your life is full of freshness, I(heart) am being nurtured by you. You haven't travelled to heaven but you have created HEAVEN right here on earth."

NIKITA: Is it? Why was I not feeling the same earlier? What was wrong then? What has happened now? Will this last forever?......

Inner Voice: "Phew! Breathe dear! I would answer all your questions.
You had lost yourself somewhere on some unknown path. You refused to listen to me. You refused to smile. You refused to talk. You hated everything....doubted everything... You refused to be NIKITA AGARWAL. You were scared that your identity, your soul is 'hurt prone' and would take you into troubles at every step you take.

Slowly & gradually something started happening. A flute was being played by someone in the heaven to bring your soul alive (I hope you'll understood the intended meaning).
People around you, started giving you positive vibes. The vibes which were specially sent to you by HIM. Now you started taking things positively. You stopped being tensed about each small & stupid thing happening in your life.
Small things, small gestures, small momentary happiness gathered you and filled smiles in the air just for you. I again was given the authority to decide things for you.
Things which were close to me (heart) were being given place in your life again."

NIKITA: One year back everything had gone haywire. Back then I thought this is it. My life would always remain like this now. I had no clue where my personal & professional life was heading.
But this phase of loneliness would embrace my life again. What will I do then? Can I do something now to avoid being not- so-NIKITA in future?

Inner voice: "Yes, you can make this state a permanent one by just feeling the presence of the one who showed you this path again at every step of your life (the Lord of love). Just smile through every walk of your life by imagining Him smiling at you. Feel the love of your loved ones even if they don't express. Express your thoughts & love at every opportunity you get. Live your life according to me (HEART)."


Its so true that such phases keep coming in our lives when we think we are on no man's land.... But that time we just need to patiently listen to our heart! Everything will fall in place!

Think about it!

THIRST

There is so much of thirst....... but I'm clueless how do I quench it......

I held some sand in my hand....when I opened my fist there was not a pinch of it left...
Was it an illusion??? Or had I gained something which is now lost....

I thought I was in heaven but it was just another dream...
So many people around me, every moment was so much fun, but when I blinked my eyes there were none...
There were many footsteps along mine on every path that I walked, I could see their shadows but when I turned it was a hallucination....
Time passes by my hurt sulks, I keep up a smile on my face but my heart slowly sulks...
Beautiful colors crowded my eyes but a rain washed away the colors leaving a white trail behind...
A hug full of togetherness is what I craved for.... a hi- bye relationship is what I get in return...
I wish I had never received the beautiful memories which make me greedy of creating more...
Somewhere inside my heart weeps, all the memories seem to be like heaps... heaps of falsity heaps of fickleness.....
I sit on earth...motionless...waiting for the moments to pass...
"There is still a hope!" my heart says.... my mind just asks one question, "Whom are you fooling my dear? YOURSELF or the WORLD?"

SOMETIMES

sometimes its just a smile that works, sometimes its a look... those eyes say alot....
sometimes its the innocence... sometimes a beautiful conversation... sometimes just a wink...

sometimes a cup of tea together... sometimes a walk...

sometimes we seek support sometimes we give....
sometimes the silence speaks sometimes we do...sometimes the trust is immense & deep... sometimes the emotions make us weak... hours seem like seconds that go by in a blink...

a small tiff.... a small rift... a small passing moment... brings me near.. to all my dear lovely lovely friends
the breeze seems fresh... a soothing hush... my face's blush... brings happiness to my heart..

the moments spent will never come back... but the memories are here to stay...
the fact that i had a lovely day... comes to my mind and stays... gone are the times when difficulties chased me... this smile is here to stay...

all these moments and many more makes me a human being.... strange are humans and human relations.... but its a pleasure to struggle & understand :)

BALANCE

ITS BEEN A LONG TIME SINCE I'VE POSTED SOMETHING ON MY BLOG.... LATELY BEING OUT OF MOOD TO WRITE MAYBE.... NEVERTHELESS THERE'S ALWAYS A NEW BEGINNING....

Today sitting alone and looking back to what has happened till date in the first half of the year, I was being pulled by the pleasant and unpleasant happenings of my life....
There were many beautiful moments which I will cherish for life. Many unhappy phases which seemed to last for eons. I was put into many difficult situations, through which I somehow struggled with the help of my family and friends....... common now nothing can be a cakewalk or else the essence of life will fade. The vigour TO MAKE IT will die. I played my part hoping that whatever I did was the best step that could be taken.

Sometimes we face something in our lives which shatters us completely. Yet at the end of it we realize that it was necessary for us to face it or else we wouldn't have been able to grow into a stronger person.

However true the above lines must be, it is difficult and almost next to impossible to understand them when we are in a tough situation. But do we notice? God always gives us a mix, a BALANCE of happy and unhappy events. And more often than not those unhappy events are the reasons to make us deserving candidates of happy events. OK that is becoming quite complicated. I would simplify.
See when a child grows he doesn't know how it feels when he would jump off a sofa and get hurt.... so he tries it...gets hurt and learns that ''whenever we jump off from a higher point we get hurt''.... this would save him from attempting a jump off the terrace in future {though there are some maniacs who attempt suicides... probably they didn't learn their lessons well ;) }
In a similar manner since childhood we have been learning small and big lessons from mistakes (some being our own and some made by others). Unless we have these hurtful and unhappy experiences neither would we value nor have any good and successful moments in our lives.

Yet the child in our heart cries and asks, "Do I have to go through this?"
The only answer we get from our mature mind is "Hey! do you have an option?"
HEART: Not really...
MIND: Then why not face it strongly...
HEART: Oh yeah! as if its so easy....
MIND: But GOD never promised you that life would be easy. You tried crying over it and handling it. It didn't really work. Now try my 'BRAINY WAY' by being strong and smiling through your tough situations maybe this will work......
HEART: (gulp) OK will try :)

Very often the solutions to many of our situations lies in going the way around... as in using the path we were never prepared to use... And then there is no harm in trying something new. Who knows maybe this works for us better.

The key lies in having a balance of decisions taken through heart and head....
The key lies in knowing that there will always be a balance of good and bad things in life.... after every horrible incident, something very beautiful is waiting for you... And the amount of time you take to come out of that incident will be only taking the forthcoming happiness away from you...

THINK ABOUT IT!